Is it goodbye? 1

“Save it for someone who cares” Ginny snarled and walked faster away from him.
“I didn’t do it gin I swear, you’ve got to believe me” Harry pleaded
“No Harry, I am not falling for this again, you can’t do this to me, it’s been so long and now you’re doing it again, my heart just can’t take this anymore” she said leaving the house and he fallowed.
“Gin, you’ve got to believe me, nothing happened with Cho!” Harry stammered with his words.
“Tell this to someone who gives a rat’s arse” She snarled still not looking at him
“Ginny, Ginny!” He said getting in front of her so that she couldn’t walk away anymore than she already had.
“What!” she yelled furiously
“Give me one more chance to prove it to you!” he said pleadingly
“I have waited for you Harry potter, I have waited for you to grow up, move on, and stop snogging other girls but I guess none of those will ever be true” she snarled at him since he had her arms and she couldn’t get out of his reach.
Harry looked at her; her eyes were bloodshot and tear tracks etched upon her face. She had hardly stopped crying or yelling at him in the past few hours. She had all the reason to, he thought in his head. She had done nothing wrong to deserve any of this pain. If anything she did more than nothing wrong, she did everything right and he had messed it all up.
“Don’t act like this gin, I know I did a bad thing but-” he was cut off by Ginny screaming at him
“So you did! You sleep with her then you lie to me about it then you try to come clean about it!” she said furiously
Harry had never seen Ginny this upset before, never in his entire life could he have even imagined him getting her like this, and the thing that entered his mind was it was his entire fault. He remained silent and just had Ginny let it all out.
“If I were to give you another chance, I would be going against all my morals, I have been waiting for you to notice me since I was at least 10 years old and now here I am having you beg for my mercy and I just can’t even look at you right now” she snapped
“I know gin, but……” he was cut off by Ginny’s anger
“No you don’t know, hey Harry when was the last time that you had someone you love shag another person?” she asked with rage
Harry’s silence said all he needed to say, “That’s what I thought” she snarled
“I didn’t mean to, it just sort of happened that way gin, I know it doesn’t sound all that great but please give me another chance!” he said begging on his knees.
“No” she said stiffly
“Come on, we’ve been through worse” he said
“Name one time Harry! Name one time that was worse than this!” she snapped
Harry came up blank, he couldn’t think of any time when it was more horrible.
“Just because I can’t think of one right off the bat doesn’t mean that there hasn’t been one” he said, still on his knees
“I hope you feel at home in hell” she snarled, glaring at him
“You don’t mean that Ginny, you don’t mean most of this” he said
“You might want to pack a little bikini for little miss hot stuff while you’re at it, she might want to repeat what happened” she glared the most awful glare ever imagined by anyone, and some would even say she could burn a hole with that glare.
“Ginny, it wasn’t like that” Harry said
“You know I hope that you’re cold heart doesn’t melt while you’re down there” Snapped Ginny furiously, crossing her arms
“Ginny….” But he was cut off by another one of Ginny’s remarks
“Hey, you know that a lot of birds just stay there instead of flying back and fourth every winter”
“Birds can’t….”
“Just think of it, you won’t have to worry about your little good boy reputation anymore, well that was the Harry that I knew.” She said
“I’m still the same person” He said
“Then have you’re other personalities pull out this knife from my heart that they stabbed the minute that you and Cho…” then Ginny fell silent then got wound up again “Well you know what I mean and you know what you did!”
“And I utmost regret it, but people make mistakes…..” he was cut off again
“If you even cared about me you would have never even gone anywhere near Cho, you know how I feel about her, yet you decide to go and do her instead”
“I do, Ginny, I really do care about you” he said
“Then why would you do this to me? Did you want to hurt me this badly because you might as well have just taken that knife that you jabbed into my heart and killed me with it! Or even better, have Cho do it for you, since you didn’t do this alone” she snarled
“Cho didn’t have a lot to do with this, I brought it up” Harry said
“Yeah, I’m sure little miss size 4 had nothing to do with this since she’s been cooing over you since my third year, even though she had a boyfriend, and that is what some people would call a slut”
“She didn’t, not really, but she didn’t say no either to the idea!” he said
“Yeah, I bet, by the way, if you had to choose, who would you choose, me or her?” asked Ginny a little angrily.
It took Harry awhile to actually comprehend the question, and when he was about to say something Ginny smacked him hard on the face saying “How could you Harry! I thought that you loved me like I loved you but I guess you didn’t even care about me in the first place!” A single tear fell down her cheek
“I did- I mean I do!” he exclaimed and got another hard smack on his face, and he had two marks across his face.
He looked up and Ginny cupped her mouth, she couldn’t believe what she had just done. Absolutely horrified with herself, at what she had done. “I-I have to leave, I can’t stay here” she whimpered then started to walk at a fast pace but Harry caught up to her again.
“I’m not leaving without a see you later” he said
“No, this is a goodbye, I can’t stand to look at you anymore Harry, I just can’t see you and know what you did, I think its best that we never see each other” she whimpered with a tear streaming down her fragile face.
“No, Ginny, no you can’t do this, I can do something, but you just can’t leave me like this” Harry said
“You left our relationship, when you…. crawled into bed with Cho, that’s where we ended, and that, I can never forgive.” She said struggling to say without getting an image in her head of him with her.
“You can’t just leave me standing here, I am you’re fiancé” he said
“I can, and I was your fiancé, but not anymore. I can’t live my life thinking does he actually care about me? Well here’s a lesson for you Harry potter, the next time that you try and kill a person just do the exact same thing that you did to me! It hurts just as much, and it drags on so that they live with it for the rest of their lives, and its whole lot worse than death” she said tears filling her eyes.
“Ginny, don’t cry again, I can’t stand to see you cry” said Harry, hoping she would some how find a way to forgive him.
“Then why don’t you go and just shag Cho, again, I can promise I won’t be here crying when you get back” she coughed, and it released a few tears.
Harry wiped off some of her tears, and then their eyes met. He could tell that nothing he could do would help this anymore; he knew that nothing he could say would help. She looked broken into many different pieces, and it seemed as if it was irreparable.
“I am not saying goodbye, because that means forever, and if I have to search the world just to see you for 5 minutes after this, it’ll all be worth my while” he whispered as he got closer to her body.
“I-I can’t, I just can’t do this anymore Harry” she gazed up at him.
“Yes, you can, I believe in you Ginny; you can get through anything” he whispered into her ear, oh so quietly.
“No I really can’t, picturing you with her, I just can’t picture me with you anymore” tears streamed down her blank face
“It’s not that hard, what are we doing right now? We’re with each other, and I hope that we can still be together, just take a few steps back” he whispered, slowly kissing her neck, but she pushed him back
“No, I told you, that I can never forgive you for doing that to me, then having to hear it from Luna, I mean of all people Luna was the only one who actually told me the honest truth about you, and it was two and a half weeks ago. We spent almost all of the time together during these past two weeks, and not once did you ever try to tell me! Then when I got that letter today I almost didn’t believe it, and that Luna was lying to me, but I guess she isn’t the liar” She whimpered, while slowly shaking her head.
“Gin…” He softly spoke, trying very hard not to upset her
“If you say that a man has needs I will hex you so hard you won’t know what to do with yourself, because I chose a different path than you and Cho doesn’t mean I have to get punished for it” she snapped
“I wasn’t going to, what I was going to say was, you shouldn’t….” but Ginny cut him off.
“Wait, wait, wait a minute. You proposed on Saturday, which means that was after you saw Cho….. Did you try to hide this from me and have us married before I were to find out?” she asked gazing into Harry’s eyes.
They said it all, the regret, the shame, and the sorrow. In Harry’s silence Ginny gasped and just walked away, slowly. He tried to fallow but she was running with all of her might now. She couldn’t look back on Harry otherwise she would defiantly be crying very hard.
Then she apparated away from the burrow and Harry would have to explain to everyone inside that Ginny wasn’t feeling too well. Or he could apparate after her; he thought this was the best idea. He apparated then after his breathing went to normal he tried to open the door but it was locked. Ginny had locked him out of his own house, again, but this time it was on purpose.
Harry knocked on the door and said “Ginny, open up, don’t act like this now”
Harry waited for what seemed like hours but was actually minutes until he said “Fine, you’re just going to have to make me open up this door.”
“Alohamora” he said with his wand pointed at the handle, but nothing happened. Ginny had enchanted it with something else.
Harry banged on the door and said “Ginny open up! You can’t live in there forever you know”
There was no answer…..

Then Harry woke up in the common room with Ginny peacefully sleeping on his lap. She looked like an angel and nothing like what she had looked like before while in his dream she was yelling at him, in another one she was blaming Fred’s death on him. Even though Ginny, in real life, refused to say that Fred was dead. She had a quarrel with Harry last night after he had come back to see her. All she could do was be angry at him then, she would mumble words like “abandonment”, “git”, and most of all “prat.” It took Ginny at least an hour to calm down, after Ron told her how ridiculous she sounded, since Harry was the one who defeated Riddle, and she was only thinking of how much he sucked.
Neither Ron nor Harry could really blame her for being upset about it, since they had barely given her any warning. Also told her about nothing, keeping her in the dark, but if she would have known she could have been given some of Snape’s storage and had no choice in telling them or not.
He didn’t really know how he got Ginny to actually calm down, but she did after a while. Harry could tell that she was happy about finally knowing what they were doing, finding the horcruxes. She gasped at parts and clung to Harry at the scary parts that Ron and Hermione would tell. Ron would just roll his eyes when Ginny would do this.
Harry gently pushed Ginny’s hair out of her face, and she slightly moved while Harry murmured “no, don’t get up, don’t get up” After hearing this a smile formed onto her lips
Turning to face him she said “I like waking up like this”
“Me too” he grinned, trying to forget his dreams, but just happy that Ginny was there with him, finally
He kissed her forehead lightly and she whispered “I missed that”
“I missed this” he said then kissed her lips, for what seemed a long time, but to Ginny it wasn’t long enough
“Yeah, I missed that too” she said beaming at him, He couldn’t think of all of the times that he had woken up thinking about how he missed Ginny so much, he was just glad to be around her.
“Is something bugging you?” she asked, looking at him a hint of worried on her face
“No” he easily lied “It just takes some time to get used to you being around me again”
“Should I take that badly?” she giggled out
“No, I just mean that I love having you around me, otherwise something would be missing, and I’ve been missing it for a long time” he said
“Aw, that’s so sweet Harry” she smiled at him, her eyes happy. Then she sat up and kissed him on the cheek. Harry missed the way that Ginny had smelled. It was the best scent he had ever imagined.
Hermione and Ron came down from the boy’s dormitory, and Ginny looked puzzled at her brother. He nodded, and Ginny squealed over to Hermione and gave her a hug. “Finally you got my hints!” she told Ron over Hermione’s shoulder. “And you didn’t even need that lame book”
Hermione was confused at what Ginny was trying to say to Ron, as he turned a shade of red. Harry chuckled in the background, when Ginny let go she hugged Ron. “Why couldn’t you take my advice and dated her before, you two would have had more time and you wouldn’t have been with lavender eating her face off” she whispered
“You would rather have me eating Hermione’s face?” laughed Ron
“Well at least she has a cleaner mouth” Ginny muttered
Hermione, Ron, and Harry couldn’t help but laugh, and Ginny joined in a little and let go of her brother.
“You better take care of her too, I don’t want to be hearing any complaints Ron” Ginny scolded with a smile
“Don’t worry but same goes with you two” Ron said looking from Ginny to Harry
“You won’t have to worry about that” Ginny smiled at Harry
Ron liked to see that Ginny was ultimately happy unlike she had been last summer, mostly in her room and when she would come out she would only mutter things. One time Ron even heard her murmur “Stupid heroic stuff, why can’t I just love someone that’s selfish!”
“Ready to go see what’s left of your fan base?” asked Ron happily to Harry
To be honest, Harry didn’t want all of this to happen, he just wanted to be normal now, even though he knew it was impossible but he would want it to be as normal as it could.
“I guess I have to, don’t I” Harry said less than enthusiastic
“It’ll be fine, I think that not very many people are down there anymore, loads of people went home last night, to see the rest of their families” Ginny said
In fact Ginny was right, most of the people had gone, as Harry and Ginny entered the great hall few people were in there but all of them were cheering. Ginny squeezed Harry’s hand which meant “I told you so”
They walked in and Ginny estimated about 48 people were there besides the Weasley’s. It was an odd feeling, the fact that he was in here just last night, and he defeated the darkest wizard of all time and he was merely a 17 year old wizard. Just of age, which reminded him in a few months Ginny would become of age too. August 11th, he hadn’t forgotten.
When they got to the Gryffindor table Harry sat next to George and Ginny, while Ron sit across from Harry and sat next to Hermione, and Percy.
“I don’t understand, first Ginny’s screaming at you, and then next you hold hands while walking into the great hall, you are one confusing man Harry Potter” George said as Harry sat down, then noticed Ron and Hermione
“Wow, you finally did it!” he said joyfully
“Did what?” asked Ron, a little confused
“Oh don’t play dumb Ron, you totally snogged Hermione, I can see it in you’re face” George smiled and both Hermione and Ron turned beat red.
“What?” asked Percy putting down the prophet
“I can’t believe that you’re still reading that bunch of shit” George said
“George language” Coughed Mr. Weasley at the other side of Bill, who also gave him a warning look.
“I’m just looking at what they have to say about this, most of it is actually true” Percy said, a little shocked at George’s words
“Still, I mean of all things you have to read, why not the Quibbler? It tells more of the truth, plus you don’t have to hear all of the ministry loving people talk about it, you get to hear real people’s opinions” George said, defiantly
“Either way it’s still a bunch of gits hiding behind typewriters” Ginny chimed in
“Ginerva Molly Weasley! Watch your tongue” Said Mrs. Weasley in a loud tone
Ron snickered at Ginny, who fell silent
“Well, they are real people’s opinions” said Percy
“Yeah brainwashed people from the ministry” Ginny muttered loudly
“I agree with Gin” George added before Percy could put his two scents in
Hermione said “Percy was often interviewed before, and he gave his opinion”
“Exactly my point” Ginny said happily, after George, Harry, and Ron laughed quietly
“Ginny….” Said bill in a warning tone but Ginny said quickly
“It’s true, even Percy knows it, don’t you” she said staring at her pale faced brother
“I guess so” he squeaked out
“I close my case” Ginny said then took a bite out of her toast.
Ron almost spit out his bacon after hearing Percy, he just hiccupped instead of choking.
“You okay Ron?” asked Hermione
“Yeah, ‘m okay” he coughed out
After Ron’s cough attack they somehow got onto the subject of Harry and Ginny, brought up by George. He said how cute they were together, unlike Percy, bill, and Charlie; they all thought she was too young to be dating. She gave them a glare and Ron burst in and said nice things but it didn’t change their minds.
Mrs. Weasley said “Well, its just you’re a little young dear” softly and Ginny seemed out raged
“George had a girlfriend first year! Why am I, the one who gets treated like a baby in these situations?!” Ginny said frustrated
“Because you are the baby in this case, mum and dad learned it through us, so you got what was left” George explained
“I’ve had other boyfriends, even Harry before, what makes the difference now!?” she exclaimed, making sure that only her family could hear her though.
“Mum and dad didn’t really know until now really, besides Harry” smiled George with glee
Ginny turned red and tried to hide her face. “Ginerva Molly Weasley! What do you mean by other boyfriends?!” Mrs. Weasley said angrily to Ginny
“Oh yeah, like 8 at a time too” George exclaimed gleefully
“That’s a lie” Ginny snapped to George, looking rather red, from anger and embarrassment.
“Yeah, that Dean kind of was a little twit” George said
“How come I can’t remember him?” asked Percy before Ginny could scream at George
“I dunno, but he hasn’t been in much trouble, while you were at school” George said, avoiding Ginny’s glare.
“He wasn’t in much trouble as it was! He had to leave Hogwarts, and not because he was expelled!” Ginny said furiously, but in a hushed tone before George could retort
“Still, he’ll probably have to come back next year” said George
“If there will be” Hermione chimed
“What do you mean?” asked Ginny worriedly
“The repairs will take at least months to do” Hermione said as Ginny gasped
“No! They can’t do this; they’ve got to keep it open!” She shrieked
“They have to see how badly it is, then they can start repairs but nothing is final yet” Hermione added
“But most jobs require a full 7 years!” Ginny exclaimed
“I dunno what you’re complaining about, we’re excited that we don’t have to go back a year, but Hermione wants to go another year” Ron said as he looked at the girl sitting next to him
“Is it so utterly bad that I want all of my 7 years?” Asked Hermione at Ron
Ginny looked happy that Hermione was going to continue her studies as Ginny was going to be doing.
“I wish that you would be more understanding Ron” said Ginny shaking her head
“Not my fault that you two want to continue you’re educations, I mean Hogwarts is great and all but not that great that I want to go here another year and suffer more” Ron said, then went on “You just like it because you’ll have someone else to talk to”
“I have plenty of other friends mind you, plus Luna will be here too” Ginny snapped at Ron
“No need to fight” Mrs. Weasley said glaring at the two children
Ron and Ginny both mumbled something and Ginny crossed her arms, while pouting.
35 minutes later Ginny, Ron, Hermione, and Harry all excused themselves from the table and left. Ginny only murmured her excuse and left behind Harry. They walked up to the common room and Ginny sat down, on the floor while twirling her hair. Hermione sat in a chair and Ron sat on the arm of the chair. While Harry sat on the couch in which Ginny was leaning against muttering something about “if I were able to get him alone”
“Gin, don’t be sour, you’re back with Harry, I thought that’s what you wanted” Ron said, looking at Ginny, while trying to put his arm around Hermione’s shoulders
“It is was I want, its just, why did George have to bring it up?” she muttered
“Then stop thinking about it, you got most of what you wanted and its right behind you, so stop dwelling on the bad stuff and look on the brightside!” Ron said
Ginny looked back at Harry and smiled and said “Yeah, I guess you’re right” She had a look in her eyes that he did not recognize; it was some type of unexplained emotion that Ginny had never showed before. It was a side he had never seen, maybe it had to do with what she muttered, he didn’t know what she could possibly have to talk to him about but he wasn’t looking forward to it when it came.